Spirit's Jokes with me
"Lost and Found"
It was 11/18/2005 at Sam's, a huge consumer club, where I bought a lot of healthy food, what I haven't done in a long time, and I paid with joy. Joy, because finally I make a living, can pay for basic necessities without struggle, and held my wallet with pride... yes, yes, I know, right here began my downfall...
My car was loaded, and, as responsible person, I moved my cart into a close cart lot, rather than just leaving it right where it was unloaded. As a matter of fact, I try to park close to cart lots, in order to have a short way bringing the cart back...;-) Fully lost in my self-righteousness I passed a customer who just had dumped his cart between two others cars, and in my head I couldn't stop complaining about this ignorant guy until I sat in the car and traffic needed my attention.
Ten minutes later I parked in the driveway and opened my backpack to fill it with some of the shopping items floating around on the back seats, as I realized: my wallet is gone!
With flying hands I ransacked the entire car, oh no, and in less than five minutes I was back at the parking place, exactly where I left the cart.
I checked every single cart at Sam's, checked twice at the support counter, and remained with the simple acknowledgment that I did it again: I lost my wallet.
Just before the hour had ended, all credit and store cards were announced lost, all checks stopped, and the police informed, because my wallet contained simply every single information about one person you can wish for, including social security number and green card.
After these phone calls, instead of feeling secure now, I had no more reason whatsoever to stay calm, hearing things like:
Police: "You're kidding! You had your SSN in the wallet??"
it sounded like "Woman, what's wrong with you?..."
AmericanExpress: "Oh my God! Poor thing! You are an identity theft victim. Imaging, they can now open new bank accounts in your name with all that information!"
CompUSA: "Dear, I'm so sorry! You better cancel every account you ever had and don't open any new ones for the next year, until you're sure nobody uses your identity!"
and the list goes on...
Rather than staying in my center, I went for it, and felt right into the panic trap. I called my best friend to see what advice she might have for me and started the conversation by saying "My entire identity is lost, my life is ruined, I might as well go back to Germany, as long as I can..." She advised me indeed, not to panic! And thirty minutes later, when I tried to call her again, she didn't took my call but sent her husband to the phone. Immediately all my internal alarm bells were ringing: I have been unbearable negative. I've allowed myself to be sucked deeply into the most negative reality. Boy, how did that happen?
Sitting back for a few minutes, it occurred to me that I forgot my wallet in the cart at that very moment when I was occupied thinking about the "ignorant guy and his cart". Well well, that explains it right there. And with all due respect I had to ask myself "who is now the ignoramus, hmm?"
I couldn't help but shaking the head about myself and bursting out in laughter. "Ok, I surrender. It is what it is, I see how I created this,... kind of..., and will go now with the flow". Grudgingly I confessed to God and myself, "arrogance and pride never fail to create failure, but before I honestly thank you for this great lesson give me one more hour"...:-)
The next day I sat in the bank and filled out all the paper for new accounts, as all of the sudden the cell phone rang. I could barely understand the woman, my Spanish is quite rusty, and I already told her "wrong number", but she was persistent and somehow I got it. She had my wallet, ready to be picked up. WOW.
After finishing all bank business, which brought me twice as much credit line as I had before!, I drove to pick up my wallet.
Angelica and her young daughter lived in the poorest area of town. When she opened the door I saw her as an angel, a beautiful face with soft warm eyes, a mouth ready to speak just uplifting words, nurturing hands, and her entire being just filled with love. I hugged her, I showed her my love and gratitude, and gave her all the money I had in the wallet. While I fumbled it out, counting it to $42, I thought "Funny, for the last two years or so I never had more than two or three bucks in here...."
While I was driving back home, a thought crossed my mind like a sharp arrow "She needed the money, she was short of $42 for the rent, or food, or electricity...!!!" and if Spirit would just have sent me the "thought" or "intuition" to go to this address and give a stranger named Angelica all my cash, I surely would have reacted with disbelief, to say it kindly.
But because I needed a lesson about self-righteousness anyway, and Angelica some money, Spirit just combined both incidences for the good of all...:-)
Well, I don't know exactly, if this is the ultimate and only truth, but it sure feels right.
True, someone else could perceive my story about the lost wallet different, way different, but since I can choose, I do have chosen, and I happen to like all my entertaining choices and perceptions! LOL
Merry Christmas. Blessings. And a Happy New Year!
(P.S.: that date, 11/18/2005, sums up to 9, which is my soul and personality number... and I have to consider this as one fine lesson...:-)
A Poem
The Lark Ascending
(Inspired by the orchestral suite English composer by Dr. Ralph Vaughan Williams)
I watched the bird fly high in the sky.
It was so graceful; it was as if the bird had studied ballet for years.
Higher it went, its head turned slightly to acknowledge me and say goodbye.
Its exquisite beauty, its graceful movements brought me close to tears.
The divine and nature have created extreme beauty.
If only we stopped and opened our eyes to see.
By the power of spirit and divine thought,
We can ascend to the heavens above.
We can learn from nature that all things are possible.
To set your self-free, you must feel the power and embrace the God of love.
Walk with such spiritual clarity and know that all things are possible.
Do not limit yourself to the mundane; all things are within your reach.
Expand your consciousness and embrace the divine.
The lark ascending has a lesson to teach.
Learn that lesson, you are no longer blind
©Andrew Pell 11/12/2005
Much Love and Light in Oneness,
Angela
There is no "truth hammered in stone".
The only truth you can rely on is the truth in your own heart.