Adonai - Living in the Light - Newsletters 2005

Newsletter, Issue 16, April 2005

1. What is the energy of April 2005
2. Was Jesus a man with an earthly sexual life?
3. Spirit's Jokes with me - Still the old fire and speed
4. A license free song - who says a lightworker can't have speed
5. A poem

What is the energy of April 2005

April 2005 is associated with the energy of the number 11.
It is the number of beginning (1) plus completion (10), and in the Tarot it is represented by the card of "Strength/Lust", the principle of strength, lust and passion.
It it also called a master number, or the "meeting with the master", as it is said "I am the Light (1) of the World (10)", whereby the "World" represents God's Heaven. This number wants to teach us the pureness of our actions, and to enable us to receive the Spirit of Christ in full.

This is a good month to establish or re-establish the love of God and all of Creation, as well as to deal with your sexuality. Stand up for your wishes and desires and discover your own position, determined and fearless. Differentiate between the yearning, lust, and desires based on a soul supportive level and those wants and needs, which merely have been suggested through your environment.

Nothing is wrong with sex! Sex is part of life on this planet and a wonderful thing to experience with a free and shameless mind, judgmental free and with indulgence of one another! Live yourself to the fullest, embrace love as well as lust and desire as a powerful tool of self-expression, get rid of senseless taboos, yet be aware about the fine line between freeing yourself and uncontrolled extremes carried to excess.

Was Jesus a man with an earthly sexual life?

Things happen for a reason, and right on time for this newsletter Joan Norton had sent her book to me... The Mary Magdalene Within.

Joan wrote a wonderful introduction and channeled Mary Magdalene, who is talking about her view and perceptions about her most famous lifetime, which includes of course Jesus.
And to come to the point, yes, Jesus was in an earthly male body... and used it as such. Read now what Joan has channeled from Mary Magdalene; excerpt:

<...When our bodies twined as one, he said he knew how the rivers loved the earth, how the oceans felt about the shores. I gave him knowing of love of the body as love of the Earth. He loved my body as teacher of the rhythms of the Earth. Men are without knowing of the rhythms which are the ebb and flow of all Creation, without knowing woman's bodylife and her experience as an Earth. She is Earth Herself, he said, as we all are and fail to feel. Cherish her rhythms, he told his followers, cherish the rhythms of thought and feeling that the women are willing to show you. This he felt through me but had been shown by his God. He told me this. His god had shown him, on that fateful night of showing, that through women would the world evolve in all. Through women would each man be saved. This he knew. His God had shown him. He had seen he and I in vision. He said that when he saw, when he was shown this, it was only a showing and a seeing for what would be. He was shown there would be a woman teacher to learn from, to learn the reason for an Earth life. His God said this to him, showed himself with a woman, but not which woman. And from her he was to learn and then to pass on that learning as best as he could.

Yes. We were together that night for the first time, it is true. We reached the heights of ecstasy and cried, both of us. Why not? You may be surprised and find it silly or impossible to think of this man as a man, but he was. He knew he was "other" as well, he knew firmly that the story now to be told was that all mankind is son and daughter to Godself. All mankind, all humankind, all womankind. We had lost the story we came to live, we had all lost the original story of coming to Earth as beings of God. He found the original story again inside of himself and set about reminding people. He knew he was reminding people, not inventing something new...>

You can read more about Joan Norton and the book on her web site at: www.marymagdalenewithin.com

Everybody who has a healthy loving relation to his/her own body, and has discovered sexuality as a blessing and the most natural thing to do, will come to the same conclusion: sure, of course it is possible, more so likely, that Jesus had sex, and as high as he was developed, his sex has had supreme quality and divine character.

Those who think about this theme in terms of blasphemy or with discomfort and hurtful unbelief, still need to learn beforehand all the other most precious lessons brought to us by Jesus.
Unconditional love, to oneself and others, on the physical, mental, and spiritual level, automatically leads to an open, transcendent, and equanimous mind... no need to judge anything... ever.

Spirit's Jokes with me
"Still the old fire and speed"

All right, since four months I am definitely in menopause, it's most literally the final pause, and even though I didn't mind my menstruation, I am all-too happy to enter this new phase. And so as with puberty, here too I intend to make it a long stretched feast and celebration, if I don't forget to think about...!

Hot flashes? Are not part of my reality. Hormone turbulences? Are not existing in my world. Uncontrolled mood swings? Are no option in my picture of self.
One thing puzzles me though: the fire and speed within, which just doesn't want to slow down...

My life force within is still a fireball, a whirlwind of energy, a tornado of great visionary feelings, and a never ending pool of excitement from the inside out.... gee, and I thought in my age everything becomes more moderate... well, think again.
I am almost disappointed, because I still can count the few gray hairs I have. Since quite a while it screamed in me with impatience: WHEN will I look like a respectable, honorable, wise, and therefore gray-haired old lady???

Two years ago you could see me, with a great portion of self-irony, yelling at myself in the mirror "Darn, why don't you become gray, and where are the wrinkles?"

My friends said, not despite but because I would love to have gray hair my wish doesn't come true - "must have, can't have" - but on the other hand I never give up, and just today I must say... it seems like I am getting there...:-)

My entire life feels like a high speed internet connection... boom, one view, boom, next window, next door, rushing, from one experience to another, chasing, one lesson after the other, falling down, standing up, faster, playful, faster... trial and error, re-inventing the wheel and collecting hundreds of self-discovered truths... life is so good!

And if anybody is interested in this kind of attitude towards life - what kind of feeling this heavenly speed might be - I dare to publish here one of my songs in full length, which is expressing so well my state of mind and soul...

click here to go to the web page and choose song 113
---(RealPlayer must be installed on your computer)

I feel I am in harmony and balance with movement and stillness; but the high speed rhythm, spiced up by action and accomplishment, remains my favorite state of being...

... and by the way: who says a lightworker can't move, talk, or think fast...:-)

A Poem

The Quiet Voice Within

Listen to the quiet voice within.
Embrace the fulfillment and peace the inner voice can bring.
Experience true miracles in your life today.
Watch all your problems dissipate and fade away.
Experience the newness of life, a true sense of destiny.
The quiet voice of life holds the key.
Become the victor. Life's battles are won.
Give thanks to God when the day is done.

Much Love and Light in Oneness,
Angela

There is no "truth hammered in stone".
The only truth you can rely on is the truth in your own heart.