Newsletter, Issue 9, September 2004

1. What is the energy of September 2004
2. If you can't say something positive...
3. Something to smile
4. A Poem

What is the energy of September 2004

September 2004 is associated with the energy of the number 15.
In the Tarot it is represented by the card "The Devil", the principle of Mirth / Humor at what "Bedevils" us. It is about the freedom to look at all your "bedeviled" behaviors and patterns - to see judgmental free what your motivations are behind every action and reaction, and if it is less than divine, treat it with humor -- because change can only happen from a place of acceptance and kindness.
And what would do a better job as humor, first to understand our dark side and then to let it go?

It is also about taboos. Who says, you can't talk freely about Sex, about Death, or about the Devil? Let go of taboos, ignore these false solcial rules, and face the facts. By shining light onto all hidden motivations and thoughts, they no longer can remain "dark". Talk about those things which really concern or scare you - the dark can only grow where it is kept in the dark

If you can’t say something positive…

One of the spiritual laws says:

If you can’t say something positive, don’t say anything at all.

This is probably the most disregarded spiritual law of all, because it would apply throughout the entire day and it takes some serious self-control and discipline to obey it.

Sometimes the very first thought of the day is already tinted negatively, and it can easily set the mood for the rest of the day:
"Stupid alarm clock…"

While the coffee is in the process of brewing a look out of the window reveals:
"Gee, how ugly, it’s raining again…"

The home and the work place are separated by roads:
"Idiot, can't you see . . .? Drive faster!"

While waiting for the elevator, there is always news to share:
"Did you know that he is cheating on his wife . . .?"

When finally entering the workspace, a co-worker might have news, too:
"Hey, watch out, the boss is in a stinky mood…"

And this goes on and on . . .all day long: the exchange and spreading of "second hand information," gossip, schmooze and simply negative thought forms.

Every once in a while there is a person whose company might not be spectacular but somehow very comfortable. This person smiles a lot, doesn't say much, and when s/he talks it is always uplifting, it is always a positive thought, idea, or gesture.

The truth is, if you don't want to sing in the chorus of "ugly news," then you have to be quite for big chunks of the day and wait until their song is over, so that you get a chance for your own communicational input.
BUT… unless you are a well-paid public inspirational speaker, people might find your solely positive input boring and swap instantly over to other "news."

So, why in the heaven would you choose to control and discipline yourself toward solely positive expressions, when you will lose so many big chunks of habitual communication?

The truth is, you only will lose those chunks of communication which are negative, so that can't be considered as loss per se . . . And yes, there will be a change in habit. Most likely there will be a change regarding what kind of people surround you. And definitely there will be a change in your life quality.

When you "radiate" anger, what do you think the universe is radiating back to you?
Of course, even more anger.
When you radiate kindness, what do you think the universe is radiating back to you?
Yes, of course, even more kindness.

As you can see, you do yourself the best favor of all to control your thoughts and, even more so, your spoken words, because everything you think, say, and do will reflect back to you -- without exception and with amplification!

There are lots of simple things you can do to improve your perceptions and reactions:
Don’t watch TV, especially not the news. Stay away from the newspapers. Read good, inspirational books. Allow yourself the time to have long walks in nature. Meditate. Dance. Learn to enjoy silence and the company of just yourself. Be quiet so that you can connect with and listen to Spirit. When others talk negative, don't sing in their chorus, but smile and be silent. Offer a constructive positive thought. Don't judge, but assume that everyone is right for himself in his own way. Watch closely the thoughts you are going to share with others. When you hear yourself saying negative things, just correct it and have a big laugh. Be tender, kind, and loving to yourself, so that you can be tender, kind, and loving to others.

This is part of the spiritual path. Positive thinking and expressing is mandatory, but nobody promised it would be easy. It can be promised, though, that it gets easier and easier with every step! It is a process, and it can be done with much fun -- if you just choose to do so!

Something to smile

Spirit's jokes with me.

Here I will share with you some of my own "bedeviled" thoughts and sentences which I better shouldn't have said. Oh boy...

Since almost a year I have my very own "dog drama", and the scenario is:
I live in an area where every house has at least 2 dogs. Some have more though! And every single morning, from the time these people get up until they leave their houses, the dogs are allowed to run through the backyards. And every single evening, when these people come back, the dogs again are allowed to run through the backyards. Sometimes they are allowed to run through the backyards in any other given time between the morning and the the next morning...:-)

You wonder what's wrong with that?
Well, all this dogs are barking dogs! Loud and intensive barking dogs, with very deep impressive voices, with scary high pitched voices -- and every once in a while they are collectively yowling - the entire bandwidth of dog voices - right here, right around me.

In January I felt quite uncomfortable. I was able to say things like "if this dog doesn't stop yowling within the next two minutes, I will go over and rip his tongue out".

In February I contacted one of the neighbors - the one with the most annoying dogs. With folded hands in praying manner, I asked to please train these dogs, because I am going to loose my mind.
It stopped for a month, I was partly so grateful, but there are so many other dogs - and I saw myself in a hopeless situation.

In April I felt like hating dogs. It slipped out of my mouth: "I have to kill these dogs - I just hate them". While saying this, I had a smile in my face, knowing that I can't hurt a fly, but this smile was rather self-pity than real comprehension about my situation.

In May I felt inadequate. I knew, that I don't hate dogs, I figured I hate the dog owners!
How can somebody be so incredible rude and egoistically, to annoy the entire neighborhood? WHAT IS WRONG with these people??? And my plan was, to record the dogs, and when all these people have fallen in sleep, I would go out and play the tape for at least an hour! Revenge. Yap, clear thoughts of revenge.

At this point the left side of my brain became overly active, slamming at me all the spiritual guidelines I know of:
You don't really hate, so, therefore don't say it or think it!
What you send out is what you get manifold back!
If you see somebody doing "wrong", sit down and self-examine!
Accept and embrace with love what Spirit brought to you!
Surrender!

Yeah right...

In June and July I really tried to apply all these wonderful spiritual thoughts - especially Surrender - but the success rate was mixed. Some days I could cope with this situation better than on other days - I was still puzzled with questions like: How can it be, that these people are not annoyed themselves? How can it be, that I have to live like that? Why oh why is this happening to me? What, what and what could possibly be the deeper meaning of "yowling and barking" in my life???

And of course I have tried to actively change my reality with all kinds of prayers and manifestation techniques. E.g. "I hereby command and manifest, that from now on no dogs will bark or yowl! And how you do it God, I don't mind, I leave it fully up to you. It is a perfectly quiet neighborhood here around me - at all times. NOW! And so it is!"

But it wasn't!

In August I was already so unspeakable tired of "fighting" the dog noise, therefore Surrender merely was the only possible thing to happen next. I actually couldn't find one single question, which I hadn't asked myself a thousand times. Boring. There was not one single thought about "barking and yowling", which hadn't crossed my mind at least as often as my questions. Boring. I couldn't come up with any new thought through self-examination or questioning my attitudes. Mega-boring.

One Morning, so as many mornings before, the dogs woke me up... and instead of acting instantly annoyed I looked at the alarm clock. Gee, it was much later than I hoped it would be, and while jumping out of bed I silently thanked those dogs for reminding me.

From this day on, things have turned around a lot!
I am not saying, that I am fully over it! But I am saying, that since that morning several incidences have happened where I allowed myself to appreciate the noise. I "created" a frame of reasons and a purpose why it would be good, for example, to be awake now...

I have to assume, that the noise had a purpose all along, yet I was simply not willing to see "a message in a dog's yowling"...:-)
After ranting and raving so much about the dogs, the universe indeed had no other chance but sending me even more yowling and barking to rant and rave about...:-)

It looks to me like this:
Spirit to Angela: "We have a message for you: woof-woof"
Angela to Spirit: "Arrrh, what annoying noise... stop it!"
Spirit to Angela: "If you don't want to listen, we can be louder in order to be heard: super woof-woof, double-yowl, tripple-woof-woof..."

As it turns out, I was barking up the wrong tree...!

Anyway, I can see the light on the end of the tunnel. And I don't "have to" get all the answers right now, but I am looking forward to all the other revelations and epiphanies still to come regarding barking and yowling...:-)

A Poem

The Garden of Peace

When life gets you down and the turmoil is great.
Visualize a lush green meadow with a wide opening gate.
Enter the gate with a noble and pure heart. Let your soul be your guide.
Before you enter the gate there are two trees side by side.
At the tree on the right hand side, leave all your baggage of anger and mistrust.
At the tree on the left hand side, leave all your envy and negativity. It will turn to dust.
Once you are cleansed, you now may enter the garden of peace.
Here in your heart, the anxiety will cease.
The garden is as long and wide as you wish it to be.
You may wish to walk that garden for hours or for years, the fence only you can see.
Take a deep breath, enter in unburden yourself! Bathe yourself with the divine light.
Walk and gaze upon each flower and see how God shines so bright.
Some people may need to walk that garden their whole life.
That garden is always there when we are in strife.
There is never any night in that garden of peace.
It is in that garden the turmoil will cease.
Be strong! Take a walk in your garden today.
Each flower will bless you with a golden ray.

© Andrew Pell 22/08/2004, apell@tpg.com.au

Love and Light in Oneness,
Angela

There is no "truth hammered in stone".
The only truth you can rely on is the truth in your own heart.