Adonai - Living in the Light - Newsletters 2004

Newsletter, Issue 4, April 2004

1. What energy carries April 2004
2. What does Luck mean
3. Something to smile
4. A Poem

What energy carries April 2004

April 2004 is associated with the energy of the number 10.
It is the number of intuition, luck, winning, and in the Tarot it is represented by the card of "The Wheel of Fortune", the principle of opportunity, breakthrough and prosperity.

This month reveals the direct results from the efforts of the previous months. The closure process in March has opened the doors now to let in new opportunities. This is a month to harvest the fruits which have been planted before.

What does Luck mean

"Luck" is widely understood as a randomly, coincidental event. [Webster's: The seemingly chance happening of events that affect someone; fortune]

Are "randomly", "coincidental" or "lucky" events REALLY existing?

How big or small is the "seemingly chance" to win the lottery? - I hear you, and yet every week many people worldwide win! Is it luck, when someone plays the first time in his life the lottery and wins right away the jack pot? Is it bad luck, when someone plays since 30 years and hasn't won a dime? Is it luck, when a woman walks her dog an hour later as usually, sees a drowning child in the river, and can act to save it's life? Is it bad luck, when a man dies unseen in the river, because nobody was walking the dog that day?

No. Of course not. There is no such thing like "bad luck" respectively "luck"! There are neither random events nor coincidence existing - there are only consequences.

All there is, is God (Source) experiencing Itself through all of us and all there is, with other words: all there is is ongoing creation through Source. Source is ALL there is.
And we are part of this.

The search for the ultimate stuff of the universe
ends with the discovery
that there isn't any.
If there is any ultimate stuff of the universe,
it is pure energy.
Subatomic particles are NOT "made of" energy,
they ARE energy.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ~Albert Einstein

Source (Energy, God) is all there is.

No experience is "better" or "worse" than the other - at least not from Source's point of view - only humans have made a huge judgmental drama out of everything and nothing.

And the reason therefore is, that the deeper understanding is missing for what holds this universe within universes together. Only when the link to the Source is missing, everything needs to be described, named, catalogued, classified and sorted in hierarchical order in such a way, that the human mind can handle it. Yet, an event, like the woman who walked her dog too late, and thereby saved a child's life, doesn't fit into thinking like this, so, this "phenomenon" gets a title for classification: luck, coincidence, random. It excludes the possibility that it might have been on purpose!

Could it have been like this:
The child asked Source on the soul level to experience Trust. It has fallen into the water, the river took it away - and it felt cold, pain and fear. The woman asked Source on the soul level to experience a higher connection to Source through Intuition. That day she decided not to go by the watch but rather by her feeling.
" Thank God, I was late today" she said after fishing the child off the river. "I knew I would not die in the river" said the child.

Two souls in agreement for a certain purpose, a mutual learning task.

What about the man who drowned unseen in the river? Is that bad luck?
No. Of course not.
First of all, his time in this physical appearance was over - that is to say with certainty, because if his time would not have been over, he would not have died!
Second, on a soul level he might have had an even stronger wish to experience Trust and the total merging with Source, accomplished by letting go of one form of existence to enter another.
Remember, all there is is energy... Source.

To die is as natural as to be born - it is just the natural rhythm of all matter: coming from no-thing, spending some short time materialized in this creation, and going back to no-thing. Or you could say: coming from Source, being shortly materialized, going back to Source.

In this frame of thinking (or better: perception) is no place for "luck", "bad luck" or "coincidence", because Source IS completely Intelligence and completely unconditional Love, where every single atom is on its right place, with a higher purpose and without any judgment whatsoever. It is what it is, and it is good.

In conclusion, "luck" means: I don't understand where it's coming from.
When you understand, that Source (Energy, God) is all there is, then you understand that everything you are, have or do is part of all creation. And creation is always on purpose.

Coincidence
co = with, together, mutual
incidence = particular occurrence or happening
A co-created incidence.

Isn't it amazing, how the real meaning of this word has been turned up side down...:-)

Something to smile

Spirit's jokes with me.

Whenever I use "coincidence" I really mean co-(created)-incidence! In my reality this word can never again mean what Webster's tries to tell me... therefore I changed the grammar for my own convenience into: co-Incidence.

For the longest time in my life, I declared myself as a "lucky mushroom", and I heard it since I was a child when my mom told me "you are lucky, you are born on a very special day". So special, that for the next 300+ years I will not have birthday again on Good Friday. Gee, how lucky is THAT??

However, I have been conditioned to believe that I will have severe luck in my life, and I took it on and perfectionized this idea to the point of self-fulfilling prophecy. Whenever I came alive out of a dangerous situation, my description was "this is because I am a lucky mushroom!". Whenever something wonderful happened to me, my description was "this is because...........!".

My thoughts had evolved into great dimensions around this point, accompanied with the even greater feeling, that nothing bad can happen to me, I can accomplish what ever I really want to, because I have this incredible luck on my side.

Even in those days, where I have been deep down on my knees, still I believed all that to be true, because I always could see things worse than they have been in my life, therefore I still was lucky. Lucky to make such wonderful spiritual discoveries, lucky to find such deep answers, lucky to be able to look behind the curtain of illusion - regardless of the seemingly painful experiences which brought me there.

You see, it is a powerful "trick" to use certain thought forms over and over again, until they turn into reality. I stumbled into this knowledge by co-Incidence, but I also made this mechanism very clear to myself:

It is the fact that I declared myself over and over again as a lucky mushroom, which has made me a lucky mushroom - and not a random cosmic lottery!

Just because of a long lasting tradition in my head, every once in a while, I still think of myself as a "lucky mushroom"...:-), yet the deeper understanding has changed of course.
It is not "luck", don't even think about "bad luck", it is Spirit in action.
And here are some examples of Spirit in action:

I drive down the highway, have an extreme undesirable thought, boom, a flying stone hits my windscreen and leaves a little crack. Hilarious. Spirit's way of warning me. I know exactly what I thought, and whenever I look at that crack, I remind myself to have learned another lesson.

I try inadequately adamant to convince someone about a certain point of view, boom, a big sparkle from the fire place hits and burns my index finger. Hilarious. Spirit's way to get my attention. I know exactly that I have gone too far, and the finger is not hurting any longer.

After being asked, I start explaining to the woman, why she feels so lonely. The words are not coming easy, but I keep trying, and so I speak, and try to find words... and all of the sudden, a car from the right is crossing my way, I have to break very hard, I barely could prevent a crash. Hilarious. Spirit's way of stopping me right here. I tell the woman immediately, that it is not mine to answer her question. The rest of the drive is smooth and full of laughter.

I work very hard and try to focus on business, boom, I run too fast, stumble and break my leg. Hilarious. Spirit's more intense way to stop a stubborn being like me. I should have stayed home and practice with my new achieved Reiki level 2 - at least, as a thank you for my quick understanding, I receive a miracle healing for my leg.

I am on my way to a place, where I am not sure of, if I am really supposed to be there. Can't find the car key. Then, the gas is empty and no petrol station on the horizon. 5 miles before destination the left front tire bursts. It starts raining. Hilarious. Spirit's way of really making fun with me. I could have figured out that message right with the missing key, but no, I had to do it my way...;-)

These hilarious mini stories go on and on throughout my entire life, I could fill books with it, from cute over spectacular to freaky, but the quintessence is simple and for all the same: I have chosen to see all events, big or small, as an interaction between me and Spirit. (It doesn't mean, that I always understand this communication between Spirit and me right away!...:-) But I have chosen to understand a fractured leg as God's loving hammer to correct my path, ...and I have asked for it.

I certainly do not recommend this technique, but I do recommend to watch out for all these little or big events, which widely are called "luck" and "bad luck", and try to find the deeper understanding beyond the obvious.

I look at the lottery winner not as "boy, what a lucky guy" but as "wow, he understands where it's coming from".

A Poem

Not long ago, a reader sent me this poem, and I would like to share this with you.

The Music of the heart
In every human heart there is always a special song.
A melody that touches the soul, a melody that can do no wrong.
Sometimes we hear a sad song when good friends part,
Or simply for a broken tired heart.
Sometimes we hear a happy song when a new baby is born.
Or simply it is just for a beautiful morn.
With any song there are many movements,
But that divine melody never ever relents.
One movement will be sad; the next movement will make us feel glad.
Life is made up of many songs.
Each song is special. Each song belongs.
Each day is orchestrated to perfection by the divine.
But there will always be one song that is uniquely mine.
The music of the heart accompanies us throughout life.
In happiness and in strife.
But it will always be there to bring comfort and peace.
With this melody comes the greatest release.
Embrace that special song in your heart.
That divine melody and you will never ever part.
It will always be there when you need to hear it.
Be still, be at peace and listen to it.
Always give thanks for that special song from above.
Listen to the music of the heart and fill the world with love.

Love and Light in Oneness,
Angela

There is no "truth hammered in stone".
The only truth you can rely on is the truth in your own heart.